enough

what if

i just miss you.

because i’m still madly,

and deeply,

in love with you?

and, what if

i know loving you was never enough

to keep you here on the earth,

tethered to the ground?

what if

i knew your heart was too broken

to ever fully be loved by mine?

what if

i saw the end

when i met the beginning?

and, i was just holding you tightly,

breathing you into my soul,

because i knew i’d lose you one day?

because you were already lost.

what if

the lesson was that neither of us

will ever be enough?

we’ll never love each other past our hurts.

we’ll never love each other beyond our pain.

we just had a chance to love through it.

and, it wasn’t enough for that either.

because we just have to work on loving ourselves.

at least right now.

and, maybe, one day, we’ll have a chance,

to try again.

to hold each other.

to hold tightly.

to start again.

to breathe.

I’m learning how to be enough on my own, now.

I’m learning how to be enough for myself.

and I hope you are, too.

So, when I see you again, we’ll be whole.

Two people who have more than enough to give.

Two people who can breathe alone.

Two people, grounded and free.

Liberated from our trauma.

Free from our ghosts.

Two people whose souls reach out for each other

from a place of healing, care, wisdom, and trust.

What if that was the point all along?