desire
the thing about being desired
is that you’re never really wanted.
it’s this thing where you’re imagined
but never perceived or regarded.
it’s this thing where you’re a collection of pieces and parts
but never really whole.
it’s this thing where you’re not yourself
because you’re someone else’s fantasy.
the thing about being desired is not really being desired at all.
just watched and ogled and toyed with and disposed of.
desire is not love;
nor is it care.
desire is a fleeting sensation in the genitals
that rumbles up through the gut
and dissipates before it can reach the heart.
desire is never enough.
it doesn’t take you on dates overlooking beautiful bridges.
it doesn’t hold your hand when your Aunt dies.
it doesn’t offer you grace when you’ve fallen into a deep dark depression.
it doesn’t send you a meal when you’re too broken to cook for yourself.
desire does not hold, sustain, or comfort.
desire just wants.
and you’ll never be able to give it everything.